When you’re good at something, DON’T DO IT FOR FREE. — Joker.
I’m not sure if Joker really said that, I just saw quote in one of my YM contact’s status. XD
So yeah. After reading that, I tried to think of something I’m good at. And, well, the answer I got involves a bed. XD And, bragging aside, I have to say, I’m REALLY good at it. Lol.
So. Should I get paid for sleeping? I’m better at it when I’m sleeping with other people. Lol.
*slap*
It’s weird, when you go out with someone who isn’t exactly over his ex.
(something sounds wrong with the composition of that sentence. correct it please.)
Anyway. I met someone through g4m. (yeah, I have a g4m, but I’m not telling~)
So yeah. Uh, then this guy that I met, he introduced me to another guy. Weird diba? I mean, usually, if you message someone in g4m, you wanna know the guy. Pero this one was different. He messaged me because he wanted me to meet another guy. Weird.
Anyway, to cut the long (and complicatedly werid) story short, this guy I met from g4m (let’s call him guy A), wanted to introduce me to his ex (let’s call this one guy B). So yeah. guy A was looking for a guy whom guy B could date. Kasi they recently underwent through a very complicated breakup, kaya ayun. >_< I got in this mess. >_<
So anyway. Guy B and I started going out. Well, not exactly going out eh. Seeing each other, (in it’s literal meaning) is more like it. So yun. Uh, I like guy B, kasi we look SO much alike. And yeah, he’s nice din.
Basta. The other day, we were at Starbucks, tapos we were kinda making kulit each other (omaygad, that sounds so bad. haha. forgive me.), then he texted me, he said “I think I’m starting to like you”. So I replied, “wag mo pilitin”. I said that kasi I knew he wasn’t over his ex. Basta.
Ayun. We talked after that, basta. I won’t say na what we talked about. Basta there were some things lang na I wanna point out.
1. He and his ex-boyfriend can be compared to me and my ex. He’s my ex, then I’m his ex. They’re both really good boyfriend paired up with us, bad boyfriends. >_<
2. He’s SO not over his ex. I mean, we were together sa mall, and all he talked about was his ex-bf. I don’t have anything against that ha. I’m just saying na he’s not over his ex. I like listening to other people’s problems. XD
3. I just like him because we look alike. Okay, sorry for being narcissistic ha, pero that’s me eh. Haha. Uh, he’s nice and all, pero… I don’t really feel comfy around him. Basta. We can be friends nalang. XD
Uhh. Ayun. I wanna talk to my ex. I hope we can be friends din. I know na it’s stupid, me wanting to be friends with him after everything I did.. Pero, we shared so many happy memories together eh. Ayoko naman yung after all those things we shared, we’ll just forget each other. >_< Hay. I wanna talk to him pero I don’t have the guts. 
I’m afraid he’ll get mad at me lang. Hay.
I’m totally missing you.
Yun lang.
I’m in pain again. >_<
I hate seeing happy couples. I get totally envious of them, specially if they’re hot.
Don’t get me wrong ha. I’m happy for them. I actually don’t like seeing couples breaking up. Basta.
It’s just that, whenever I see happy couples, I remember na I’m not happy — not anymore. Happy memories flash before my eyes, then my ex pops up. Then I feel pain.
*sigh*
I’m totally wasted.
I miss my ex. I miss him so much.
I could’ve been happy, but I chose not to.
But at least he’s happy. Well, I hope he is.
*sigh*
I’ve been single for almost 7 months na. It’s a bit hard, pero I can manage naman. I just really miss having someone take care of me.
Parang ang dali gawan ng solution diba? I mean, not to brag naman, pero there are lots of people there who like me. And I actually like some of them din. It’d be so easy for us to just go out on a date, then poof, we’re together na. I’ll belong to someone na ulit. Ang dali diba? Pero it’s hard eh. >_<
[flashback]
I had a boyfriend once. Well, actually, maraming beses. I had about 7 relationships total. Pero 5 of those were simply flings. I mean, there wasn’t any real “love”. Yung 2 na natira, I could (and would) really call them boyfriends.
My first (ex-)boyfriend (my fourth relationship, the first three were stupid flings) and I were together for about 8 months. Actually, parang never din naging kami. Basta, magulo. 4 months kasi dyan we were dating, tapos yung natirang 4 months pa, he was already seeing someone else. Pero still, I loved him. I know I did. XD We broke up kasi he got together with the guy he was dating. They were together for almost 2 years. They just recently broke up. Last month lang yata, or the other month. Basta, recently lang.
My second (ex-)boyfriend (my last relationship) and I were together for about 10 or so months, pero on-off kami. We were like together lang for a total of mga 6 months, I think. I’m not quite sure myself. Basta. He was the PERFECT partner for me. He’s kinda’ seloso lang, very possessive, and we had a big age gap, 8 years (I was 18 and he was 26), pero I didn’t care. He really was everything I was looking for.
Stupid diba? I mean, if he was everything i wanted, why’d I break up with him? Hay.
I don’t know really. Nahihirapan ako sa kanya at times. Pero… Iunno. We work things out naman eh. Pero.. hay. I just didn’t feel it was fair. Kasi he loved me SO much. He always made me feel that. Pero what do I do to him? I was a total jerk. I cheated on him, I was unfaithful. Pero he forgave me. He forgave me again and again. And I was still a jerk. >_<
I’m feeling bad nanaman.
Anyway. Basta. I don’t want to go telling stories about him na. I’m feeling bad lalo eh. o_o
Basta. Siya ang reason kaya ako single ngayon. After we broke up last January, I promised myself na I would stay single for an entire year. I wanna learn what’s wrong with me eh. I needed time to reflect, to think.
Kaya ngayon, I’m single, even though getting a boyfriend isn’t really that hard. Do note that I said “boyfriend”, that doesn’t necessarily mean na that guy is a good boyfriend. By boyfriend, I mean one of those cute guys who have nothing (or not much) to offer. Well, nobody can offer as much as what my last bf gave me. He was so perfect.
*sigh*
Totally incoherent post. Sorry. I’m sleepy, and I’m depressed. It’s kinda’ hard to write properly. >_< I miss him, but I wouldn’t dare talk to him. I know he wouldn’t want to talk to me. Hay.
Anyway. I’m almost at the 7-month mark. 5 more, and then I’ll see what I’mma do then. If I find being single good, I might stay single even longer. I probably won’t put a limit to it na. I’ll enter a relationship nalang ulit when I find someone who’ll really sweep me off my feet, the way my last ex did.
*sigh*
I hope I made the right decision with you. >_<
First post. Yay!
*hugs blog*
Uhh, yeah. 
Hehe.
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